Negative Thinking

I have been thinking lately about my attitude and it occurred to me that very often my attitude is what keeps me from living in the peace that God has for me. Here is a prayer I recently wrote for myself. I'm hoping that it will speak to you all, too, just as it did to me.

Lord, take away that part of me that is incessantly focused on disappointments (real or perceived), unmet needs, annoyances, inconveniences, unmet expectations, failures, unreached goals. These are self-centered and self-serving thoughts that create in me an attitude of discontentment and anger. They defeat me in my efforts to live like Christ. These thoughts do no good for anyone.

Jesus calls me to live in His presence and follow His will rather than my own. Negative and selfish thoughts like those above reflect the failure of my own plans and my reliance on myself and other humans to meet my needs. Instead, I should be bending my own plans, wants, and desires to an attitude of patience and reliance on the plans of God.

Living in peace depends at least in part on my letting go of my own plans, or at the very least holding my plans very loosely, so that I can enjoy God's presence in each moment and be open to what He has for me in each day. I cannot see His plan if I am narrowly focused on my own or upset because my own plans were destroyed by circumstances.